I feel Greedy – in a seemingly un-feminist way

I am a very loved person.

I have lots of friends who look after me and help me and love me.  So much so it feels me with lots of joy.

BUT…

I want more.  I want sex.

I have one friend who I of course have great feelings for.  and Everytime he hugs me I can feel the love emenating from him.  He’s like that.  Full of love which he gives to all his friends.

his touch is comforting and exciting, but it is just a friend… sigh.   He gives great hugs, great massages.  But I think it will lead no where, which is what it is, right?

Being content should be easier.  The key to having everything you want is to not want.  but I’m not very good at that.

Anyway, Saturday morning he woke me up with a hug, and that night in the cabin at the top of the Pinnacle he jumped over and gave me a lovely hug goodnight (as he does to people in general).  on the track down he took care of me when I had blood sugar level issues and put his hand o my back,  and brought me food.  (and wasn’t grossed out when i mentioned “ahhh I got my period at the top of the pinnacles and now I have to walk down with cramps.”)  A lovely hug last night before I climbed the stairs and one goodbye this morning.    what a weekend.  It was amazing fun.  amazing views, and lovely people.  and he is just so lovely.

but yes… the friendship is wonderful.  I should be content with what I have, but that, as most things, is easier said than done.

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Published in: on October 12, 2008 at 9:51 pm  Comments (2)  
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Menstruation is Good

I’m not being sarcastic.   It is good for the body and reminds me that I am woman with all that comes with it.  

I am currently menstrating so it is on my mind a bit.  I really wish I could shake the world by it’s shoulders and get it to realise that a monthly flow is not gross. ProFeministe Male supports me leaving my vagina as is, but the industry doesn’t.

I mean without this function none of us would be here. my vagina is clean and smells like a vagina. I use a diva cup because it is tidier and doesn’t cause tss. no string hanging down to carry bacteria up inside me.  Occasionally if I don’t want anything inside of me I will use a pad.  I’m hoping to get Glad Rags so that I’m not adding to landfills when I do that.

Just two days ago I was running into problems that people have because I admit to bleeding about once a month. I was a bit worried because I was late, (not so late I was freaking out and heading to the pharmacy, esp since I use spermacidically lubricated condoms) and I mentioned this to a male friend. He freaked. we were in public! his main concern? “Keep your voice down!” So I did what any immature recently out of college youth would do: I continued talking about vaginas and menstration. I even called out “menstration” after him at one point when we were leaving a gellato place in china town SF. Most of the comments weren’t that graphic, such as, “I need to hang out with menstrating women, my body is really sensitive to syncing up with other people”

If you are a girl and you are reading this and think that anything I’ve said is gross, or I’m crazy to mention menstration to a guy. Let me tell you:

Your body is fine. Your vagina is wonderful. Your vagina is beautiful.

 You do not need to lemon scent it, you do not need to hide it’s monthly flows. It is how it should be.

do not be afraid to touch it, or have it touched (lovingly).

it is not dirty. It is the place from which life springs. It is the place from which orgasms spring. Rejoice.

You are wonderful.